Mushy and Gushy

Now that we have the one night stand thing covered.. I guess it will go into one of the serious relationships..Courtney.. Yikes.. Well.. With him I learned I can squirt. I know.. I dont know what it was about that boy.. But I really did like him. It's sad.. cause his dick really wasn't big.. I learned then that it really wasn't about the size.. it was how they worked it.. To a certain extent...
But really the boy could fuck.. Me and him often talked about it.. We think it was jus so much better than most because we really did care for each other. He was my first experience trying to have a real relationship. Tired of Mr. Big's ways, and just so unsure of what could be.. I went somewhere else to learn. I paid for it in the future with Mr. Big.. But where are we.. 9 years later.. and we are barely shitting on the pot and neither is getting off..
Courtney just couldn't stay out of jail. I couldn't do it anymore. I had gotten pregnant with his baby, but a higher power looked out for me. Cause what would I do with a little courtney runnin around? We eventually fell apart.. I still think about the sex.. Because I havent had someone do so little and make me feel so good.. Lol..
Ok I decided to save Josh for another post.. Because I have to add someone that just popped up. This is a very complex situation. Al.. .. Al was a co-worker of mine that moved to ATL and got really sick. I hadn't heard from him in 2 years. We have common friends so we both would ask our friends how the other was doing. How can I explain him?? He is Mr. Big but.. I dunno.. For one their birthdays are 1 day apart. Their personalities are damn near identical. Me and Al had so much passion for each other that went no where. He felt I was hung up on Big.. But.. I wasnt.. I really was into Al.. He wasn't my type.. but I thought he was gorgeous. And he saw me.. he saw me as beautiful.. Not sexy, not fat.. not ugly, not cute.. But beautiful. And it showed in all he did for me. even when we fought.. And we did. But we NEVER fucked.. kissed or anything.. We flirted.. that was it. Well.. He popped into town a few days ago.. He went to our old job and got my number and called me immediately.. he was drunk, but he had a lot to say. Basically, he never stopped thinking about me.. and he missed me.. and he wanted to see me. I did too.. I missed him and yes from time to time I did think about him..
Well.. He kissed me.. It all just unravelled from there... We had mad passionate love. .. Far from mediorce.. We both were pretty damn surprised at how fuckin intense that was. I know I said that Big had the number 1 spot.. but Al put it down.. All the kissing, the cuddling.. the being ONE.. I know mushy as fuck.. But shit.. He lives in cali.. and I cant put my heart thru another Big.. It felt good to be made love to.. And truly feel someones love for me.. Hopefully Al will have his own chapter.. Big has some catchin up on love making..
Anyhoo.. I talked your ear off.. Im gonna play tomorrow by ear.. We shall see what I have in store for you ok.. Smooches.. Good night and WET dreams...


xoxo
Agent XXX